What do you listen to over and over? What show do you go back to? What makes you all tingly? For me, it was music. Matilda,specifically. If you’re not familiar with the show, it’s beautiful. It touches my soul in a way I can’t quite explain. There’s a song, I’m Here sung by a man in a story Matilda tells, it’s a father to a daughter and he holds her and tells her he will protect her from everything. That’s what I needed. To feel like someone was going to take care of me and protect me from the scary things inside my head. I didn’t need a dad – I love my dad and I know he loves me more than anything. But that song stuck with me and I listen to it on repeat when I’m lying on the floor crying because I just can’t anymore. I’ve already mentioned Once and that one stuck with me too. The music is generally very soft and slow with powerful messages. In Falling Slowly? “You’ve warred with yourself and suffered enough, it’s time that you’ve won.” I remember sending that to my mom when I was feeling a bit better. I cried, it resonated with me so much. I was exhausted. I was fighting a war in my head and I just wanted to win. That hit me like a ton of bricks. What hits you like a ton of bricks? I knew I wanted someone to protect me from I’m Here, and I knew I just wanted to win from Falling Slowly. I’m sure Sherlock Holmes or something has said that theres no such thing as a coincidence and while I don’t think that’s true, I do think that lots of things aren’t. Think about what strikes a cord in your soul, maybe that’s something you need.
The Life of a Mourning Dove 