Okay, I want a video of a girl scrolling through her own insta singing reflection from Mulan because that’s pretty much how I’m feeling. I scrolled through my own Instagram the other day and I didn’t know that girl. Big smiles, funny captions, and a picture perfect entourage. That girl didn’t cry herself to sleep because she’s so scared to be lonely. That girl has never gone back to bed because she found a new stretch mark or her favorite jeans don’t fit. That girl exists on Instagram and only on Instagram and that sucks.
Summer is the time when middle class white girls like me post perfect instas with charming captions and all the emojis. And my life isn’t…that? I don’t have lots of friends to go to the beach with or a hot guy to take a laughing bikini pic with (and thinking about going out in a bikini much less, taking PHOTOGRAPHIC EVIDENCE is inducing an anxiety attack). So, does that mean I’m living a less fulfilling life than the bikini-clad insta models?
Okay, no but it does feel like it!
Oh…everyone is having fun and living these beautiful lives and I’m fat, lonely, and depressed? Awesome.
EXCEPT NOT REALLY.
It’s be really cool if I was always happy and fulfilled but I’m not and I don’t know a human in the real world who is.
I compare myself to the lives I see playing out on Instagram. I compare myself to the woman I try to be on Instagram and that’s not good for me or for you.
Keep it in perspective when you can and if I figure out how to be the woman I am on Instagram (or to stop caring that I’m not) I’ll let you know.
The Life of a Mourning Dove 
Morgan you keep doing your thing! This post could be about any adult woman (me, for sure) looking at FB. My sister and I always joke about “FB” life vs the real thing. While I love FB for keeping in touch with my out of town family and friends, there are days that I curse it and want to delete my account. Those days when I am comparing my reality to all the beautiful people’s FB life (aka not their reality). You are an amazing young woman with a faboulous, loving family. Focus on those things because they are most certainly REAL!
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